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September 30, 2009- Wednesday- Day 42
So I have to start out saying that right after I wrote this journal entry my document had an error and it was deleted. I was like what this never happens! I was a little angry but I think it was because this is going to bless someone and Satan doesn’t want it too. So here we go again…
Last night I woke up really sick and was until the morning. I decided it was time to go to the doctor. I had been putting it off all month but I couldn’t handle all the stomachaches and everything. So I talked to my leader Israel and he called the doctor that he and his family goes too. I was excited that the doctor spoke some English and we worked hard to understand each other. He asked me some questions and then he had me lay down. After checking some things he said you have Collidus (sp?) and it is something you are not going to die from but you will have to adjust to it. You are going to have to give up flour, spicy foods, and peppers. Also you have to make sure to eat 3 meals a day, drink lots of water, take some medication, and eat super healthy.
I was excited to know what it was but then it hit that flour is in a lot of things! I paid the $25 for the visit—so cheap—and then we were on our way. Thoughts tore through my mind about how I was going to have to adjust especially being here in Mexico. Israel took me to the beach to see the ocean since it had been awhile and he said Tenielle everything is going to fine... don’t worry. He loves and cares for me so much. I started thinking about how crazy it was… I think this is all Satan trying to get me to be miserable and to leave. But I am not going anywhere and my Lord is still Lord! Satan needs to get away! I believe God has some amazing stuff in store for me and that is why all these thoughts of what I have to give up are coming. I mean I know that I’m not going to be able to have most breads, pizza, pastas, bagels, some crackers, onion rings, friend chicken, peppers, salsa, and much more plus I should give up pop but I can still serve the Lord.
We got back to the orphanage and I was kind of down but I decided that this was the best time to have some great God time. I started to practice some worship songs in Spanish when I remembered that Alex from the Hospice gave me a verse yesterday to look up. And it was perfect… exactly what I needed. “God is not unjust; he will NOT forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them.”- Hebrews 6:10. Our God is still God and I know he loves me so much. Satan tries to get us down by having thoughts go through our mind that life is horrible but I know that hey its just food! I think about my amazing friends at the hospice suffering and I realize how great I have it… all the blessings God has showered on me.
After awhile Israel and his wife took me to find my medication and some things for my friend Jesus (Chewy). We had to go to like five different pharmacies but we finally found the medication and it is almost $1 per pill and I have to take 2 a day. The doctor said I should take them for 1-2 months. Wow $60 a month… I can’t even imagine how much they would be in the US. Israel bought me his favorite ice cream after that and talked to me. (The ice cream is SO amazing) he kept saying remember everything is going to be ok and you will make it through all this.
We headed to a different orphanage… one that Sergio started a long time ago called City of Refuge. It was huge… they had 70 kids! They invited me to come out for a day. I am excited to see what that one is like. What an interesting day but hey you never know what to expect when you wake up… my plan is to live out each day to the full here! I am not going to let sickness tear me down… I want to give each day to God’s hands and let Him mold me into what He wants.
October 1, 2009- Thursday- Day 43
I woke up this morning feeling better about life and trying to trust God in all he had for me. I said good morning to the kids and then hung out with them until school time. I was planning on spending the day at the hospice but God had something different planned. Sergio showed up and took me around with him. We went to Jesus’ house and dropped off some stuff… we visited a family where it was a mom who had lost her job. She has five kids and a baby granddaughter living with her and their fridge is completely empty. They were so sweet and we talked to the mom about how to trust God through hard times and that God will provide. I gave her the money from my pocket and Sergio gave her some… it wasn’t much but it was enough to buy some food for a while.
My heart broke seeing her cry… they were hitting rock bottom and needed help. Sergio said he had this feeling he needed to go visit her today and he was right. J We left there and he took me to see the other orphanage that he built and a women’s shelter that his daughter runs. It was pretty neat to meet one of his daughters and to see where a lot of his vision had started. He also showed me where he started Baja Vision ministries and their first church. The people invited me to come back and spend the day with them… playing some music and other things.
We went to Sergio’s sisters house next for her birthday and so I met some more of his family. They were very nice people. After that we headed back to the orphanage and a group was there… one of my favorite people is there leader! His name is Ken and he is from the San Francisco area. He has come down three times since I have been here and he blesses me so much every time. I hung out with the kids and the group and then we went to get tacos. Right when we were heading out Ken invited one of my favorite boys from the area to go. His name is David and he is such a sweetie…. Always smiling and he loves Jesus a lot. I sat with David most of the time at the taco stand talking about his schooling and everything. After a while someone from the group came to talk to me. His name is David to and he is originally from Mexico. We got to talk about my dreams of missions and what God is doing in my heart and everything. It was a good talk. I almost cried telling him some of the things that have happened to me so far. Christ is truly working!
Tomorrow I get to work with the group in building a new orphanage that Ken is starting. They seem like nice people and it will be good to see Ken’s project that the Lord put on his heart.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
September 27, 2009- Saturday- Day 39
I woke up good time and got ready for church. The night before I had a horrible bloody nose that lasted for like 30 minutes. I hadn’t had one in years… it was gross but I prayed that God would heal me and I did good today.
It seemed that no one was ready on time and completely running late for everything. I waited and talked some of the older boys about the bike ride they did yesterday. Finally we headed to church and were like 20 minutes late… we got there for there last song in worship. But I knew the song! I was so excited… it was worthy is the Lamb. I sang with all of my heart and the teen girls looked at me but I didn’t care. Church was good… I only understand bits and pieces so I struggle through it. I notice that I get distracted cause I cant understand then I look over and some of the people i'm with are laughing at me struggling to understand. At the end we sang mighty to save and then headed to the van.
I was so tired when we got back I started to fall asleep on the bench outside so I told Emily that I would take a nap and she could wake me up when lunch was ready. She came but I slept through lunch then she came again to ask if I wanted to go to the Hospice. Then I finally got up… I don’t know why but I was so tired.
The older kids wanted to go with us to the Hospice… some had been they’re before but they wanted to see what we were going to everyday. We brought 4 girls and Bulmaro… I could tell by some of their faces that this was definitely tough for them to see. I noticed that I was super happy to be there! These people are not patients to me but they are my friends. They call me Tonya cause Tenielle is to tough for them… and they always talk about me playing guitar and singing. If I don’t have my guitar that is all they will talk about. I promised them that when I come back this week that I will bring it. Bulmaro seemed to take it kind of hard… it was to tough for him to see all of it. Personally most of the people where doing great today and seemed really smiling. One guy was outside that hadn’t been in along time and one guy was walking better. I was super happy and smiling today… I just felt so filled being there.
There is this older guy who is super sweet and he was sleeping in one of the rooms. I peeked my head in and he opened his eyes… he was so excited to see me. He kept going on and on… he had me come over and hug him. He loves when you just sit by him and let him put his arm around you. His is like a great grandpa! When I left he gave me the biggest hug and kissed my neck. He blessed me a lot. Oh how I love it there and long to go everyday! I’m so glad that God put them in my life.
September 28, 2009- Monday- Day 40
Today was a good day and kind of relaxing. This was the first day in awhile that I had time to myself to take a nap, read, think and catch up on some things. It was nice. Emily left today which I am going to miss her. She is such a sweetie and I’m so glad that we have become friends.
I played with the kids a lot today and talked to different people. I really didn’t leave the orphanage until Roberto asked me to go see his house and stuff. He is the brother of our cook Teresa. He has two boys around 16 that I am friends with and his wife is sweet. I checked out there basically one bedroom house that they are renting this month so that it is not as far for the boys to go to school. They are switching schools so they can actually live in there home. Roberto has a sweet spirit about him and he is very outgoing. We get along very well and it was good just spending time with their family. They invited me to go to there small church and to see there home sometime. I think I will go this weekend. There oldest boy David and I talk a lot… well we try but the language barrier is tough and he talks so fast. Haha but we try.
I got back to the orphanage kind of late and they had to unlock the gate for me. I’m glad some were still up. I watched wrestling with some of the boys and got a kick out of there impression of the moves. Today was a good day and I feel so blessed to have such wonderful new friends.
September 29, 2009- Tuesday- Day 41
Today I woke up and spent the morning with the kids. I helped them with homework, watched cartoons, and then ate lunch with them. Then Israel drove me over to the Hospice Center. I was so exited! These people have become some of my great friends. I went through saying my hellos and then helped one of the guys Alex make some lemonade. We were talking about some different things and he said you know who used to sing to God every morning? Satan… and he is so jealous that you are singing to God everyday with your great voice. I had never thought about it that way. I brought my guitar today and sang until they were ready for lunch.
I walked in to talk to some of the other people and noticed one of my favorite guys Matez was sleeping and didn’t seem like himself. Alex told me that we needed to check his blood sugar. So I was the one who had to poke his finger and check everything… it was super low and his eyes were like Jell-O. Alex got the stuff and we injected this sugar thing into his veins. Matez kept saying i'm finished and he was in a lot of pain… Alex said he was dying and if we hadn’t caught this when we did he wouldn’t have him with us anymore. I was holding a mans hand while he was near death… it hit me hard.
Finally after a little while he started coming back into him old self and stopped talking out of his mind. He did say ‘have that young girl sing to me’… so I started to sing him songs and we starting talking to him. He looked over at me as I said Hola and finally it clicked who I was. His eyes lit up and he started to smile. He said ‘Oh beautiful girl… and kept going on and on about how beautiful I was and how he loved my smile and that I was the girl who sang to them and played guitar and said if he wasn’t such an old man he would kiss me.’ We were all laughing. He is like a great old grandpa. He held my hand for a long time and then we got him to eat.
I left the room promising him I would come back soon with my guitar and thinking how blessed I am to know this man. I then went upstairs and sang to the men who mostly just stay in bed… then went back to Matez he smiled as I came in and he was trying to say my name but couldn’t understand it. All the people at the Hospice call me Tonya cause it’s just easier. It makes me laugh. I sang him and another guy some songs and then just talked with them Matez kept kissing my hand and telling me how wonderful my singing was and how he thought I was beautiful. They are so funny here… they say anything that comes to mind. They truly treasure you for who you are. Its great! After awhile Alex helped me translate some of my songs to Spanish and then I talked with the director Armando about his time in Bible College. It was a great day!
Israel and his family came to pick me up around six and then we headed back to the orphanage. It started to rain and became pretty cold… I ate some supper and hung out with the kids. After saying goodnight and giving them hugs I heard some loud bangs. I thought ok either that is gunshots or fireworks… but I doubt it was fireworks. Sitting my room a lot more went off and I heard some other noise. They sounded so close… I don’t know if I could ever really get used to the sound of a gunshot knowing that it was directed at a person.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
September 12, 2009- Saturday- Day 24
I woke up early this morning to go to work with a group from California. It was awkward for a little bit when I walked up to the area where they were staying but I got used to them after a little bit. I introduced them to some of the kids and then Sergio came to show us the way to the building site. I love when Sergio comes, he is such a great spirit and always excited to see people. We always greet each other with a hand shake and a kiss on the cheek. I was able to ride with him to the site and we had some great talks. We talked a lot about what God is doing in our lives right now and how he is changing us. I can’t believe that he is 70 years old… he is like a rock! As we were driving we turned to head up to the hospital and he said “hey see that pile of glass in the street?” I said yes… he said “that is where the car was stolen.. so whenever you see that.. that is what it is… they broke out the window and stole the car.”
Interesting to think about… how different places are. We got to the hospital and started our work. I helped tape off rooms for painting and I mudded over nails in other rooms. After awhile one of the girls named Jordan and I went to take a break. We were talking about the first impression she had seeing Mexico for the first time… I noticed the trash everywhere and the dogs running in the streets. As we were talking these three guys walk through the site to the other side of the plot. I looked at them and one of them looked like my friend Jesus. But I thought that cant be Jesus he is sick...
--Jesus is 22 years and we met two years ago when I first came to Mexico. We became good friends and would talk every once in awhile through email and stuff. The second year I came back I found out that he was dying from kidney failure. He was really bad and they didn’t know if he was going to make it. Later I found out that things had gotten worse. It hit me really hard. –
Thinking through it I thought I was crazy. There is no way that is Jesus… I haven’t seen him in over a year and Sergio had said he was still struggling but doing better. It bothered me so bad so I decided that when I saw one of the guys again that I would ask him who that guy was. Well just a couple minutes later one of the guys walks over and I asked him who that guy was and he said Chewy ( a nickname for Jesus) and I said what!?! The Chewy that has kidney failure and he said yes that is him. He took me over to where he was and called him over. I was in shock! He looked so good! I said “hey Jesus! Do you remember me?” he said “of course I do!” we hugged and talked for awhile. It was so sweet! I said “you are walking around!!” He said “yah and I can run and I play guitar at church and everything… I am feeling better and I hope to get a transplant in 3-4 months.” I was so excited. I couldn’t believe it! We hugged again and said goodbye so we could get back to work.
I started crying as I walked back to the site… Jesus is a miracle! I couldn’t believe that I had seen a miracle of God right in front of me! I was crying and praising God for awhile. The group kind of looked at me and trying to figure out what is wrong with me. I told them its joy not sadness. I explained the whole thing to them and they were amazed too! God is SOOOOOOO good!
Later Sergio took me to see Jesus’ new house that they had built for him, his sisters, and mom. It was cool meeting his family and just talking with him again. He is so sweet and he has such a great spirit about him. We left there and then finished up at the new hospital. We got back to the orphanage and the group made dinner for the kids. They also brought them presents like bubbles! Which the kids freak out over. What a wonderfully amazing day! God is so awesome.
September 13, 2009- Sunday- Day 25
I was able to go to the big church with thousands of people in the congregation today! I really love the music. It is always so amazing and gives me chills. The worship leaders are great and the band is very professnial. We sang Here I am to Worship in Spanish… it made me smile.
Today wasn’t really a busy day at all… I just played with the kids and hung out around the orphanage. I have to say that I think I will miss these days the most… where I can just watch the kids do crazy things… or watch cartoons with them… or get tons of hugs and kisses. They feel like family and I can’t imagine my life without them.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
September 10, 2009-Thursday- Day 22
Today was an amazing day and it broke my heart all at once. I first got up and played with the kids then finished some stuff for there website. Then Israel looked at me and said lets go… I will drop you off at the Hospice Center and pick you up around 3 or 4. I said ok! I was super excited and nervous all at the same time… I wondered… does anyone speak English? Am I going to feel awkward being there alone? But as soon as I got there and he left I started to play my guitar and sing for the people on the back patio. Things seemed to be going good and they liked it. They kept saying more. Some of the guys spoke English and so they would ask me different things and said that they loved me being there. Two guys told me that they remembered me coming to meet them last summer.
After playing a lot of songs my fingers were tired and I was super hot. It was pretty hot outside and I wanted to know what was going on in their lives. One guy had Parkinson’s disease and he was wearing a helmet. His name was David and he seemed so happy. He was walking on his own for the first time in years and he would talk to me in a studer. I liked him a lot. I went inside after awhile and went through the rooms. One man named Max had had a hip replacement but his body wasn’t taking it well… he was so thin that I could see all his ribs. They said that he just wanted to die. There was another man in there that used to play the violin. He was really quiet but would smile at me. There was another guy who was on crutches that was showing me around later I found out that he had Aids and had lost a leg. He showed me two ladies in the next room. One had diabetes and had lost most of her limbs… the other lady has lung cancer.
After seeing them I walked up the stairs to talk to Alex who worked and lived at the Hospice. He was one of the main caretakers and he was actually Sergio’s adopted son. Alex told me that he had been in prison for 5 years in the states and that is why he could talk such good English. He showed me the different people… there were four men laying on hospital beds in the main area up stairs. One was awake so I talked to him for a while… he had the bluest eyes and could speak some English. I found out that he used to be big into drugs. He was so bad that he blew out his veins and his body was super swollen. I guess that sometimes he would miss the vein and just put the drugs right in to his skin. They can’t put medication in his veins because of his usage and so it is taking him a lot longer to heal.
Another man has really bad diabetes and lost one of his legs… the one-foot he does have is curled under so he can’t walk at all. He scoots around on his butt to move if someone can’t carry him. The guy next to him has epilepsy… he sleeps a lot but really enjoyed me singing to him. Then there was an older man there who I found out can’t go to the bathroom because of a surgery thing that they did so he has a tube that is through his belly button and goes to a bag. Alex told me that if he doesn’t get another surgery he would die in less than a year.
Then Alex handed me a mask and some gloves. We walked through this white curtain into a room with a young man lying there. They didn’t know his name and they think he was around 18 to 20 years old. The general hospital found him lying in the street and someone had hit him in the head with something… he bled internally so they had to do surgery to fix him. One eye was swollen shut and he was basically a vegetable now. A breathing tube was going through his throat and a feeding tube straight to his stomach. He lay there in only a diaper (which all the men who were laying in beds only had a diaper on). Then Alex said you see that gooey stuff that is coming out under his breathing tube? We think he has tuberculosis. I was in shock… I had never been around anyone with that before. I said isn’t that contegious and dangerous to be around? He said yes but the blood of Jesus will cover us and protect us. He said he is looking at you. With the one eye open he would look and follow people… that was his only way of communication.
Alex left me with him alone while he went and got some things. I reached down and rubbed my gloves across his arm… he stared at me with such desperation. Through my mask I sang him some songs and just held his hand. My heart broke… Alex came in and had me clean out his breathing tube. When he had enough strength he would cough and his whole frame would shake. I wiped the blood and spit off his lips, then cleaned his face with a wet wipe. It was so hot and they couldn’t use fans in there because it would just spread the germs.
I left the room and he asked if I would like to feed someone. I said of course. I walked down the stairs and they handed me the food. He told me to sit down and showed me what to do. There was a boy around 22 years old who was mentally not there and was blind. I was able to spoon-feed him, as he would sway back and forth. He would reach for my leg when he wanted more. As I was waiting for him to chew I started to hum and he got super excited. He squealed and started moving around his little couch thing he sat at. Alex told me that his hearing was great and he hardly ever slept. He will scream a lot especially at night. They all call him the beautiful little boy and love him a lot.
I sat down at the table and was thinking through what I had seen… Alex told me about almost ever patient there. He said he is not the blessing they are. Then a man came up to me and shook my hand very tight. He was saying stuff but I couldn’t understand. Alex said that he was mostly deaf and schizophrenic. He usually nevers talks to anyone… to afraid but he must like you. Alex got some paper and a pen so that I could talk to the man. He read very well. He used to be a chemical engineer but got hit by a car and slowly lost his mind. He found out about me playing guitar and got excited. So we went upstairs and I played for him and some guys. I would sing then he would sing. It was sweet. Israel came around 5 to get me and when I was walking out that man stopped and said bye girl. He waved and stood there with a big smile.
I left that place SOOO blessed! I can’t believe that God let me be a part of those people’s lives. Israel said that I could go back once or twice a week if I want! I am excited to see what God is going to do. J
September 11, 2009- Friday- Day 23
Today I slept in to around 9, which I never do but I decided to since I was super tired. I felt bad but no one seemed to mind. I checked my email and played with the kids. I was able to help take them to school again today and then I just had the afternoon to have some God time. It was a good time of reading and thinking.
I went with Evelyn to take little Israel to his parents at their other house. It is their day off, which they get one I believe maybe every two weeks. We got some tacos and then visited with them for a while. Evelyn and I talked about what God was doing in our lives and she was struggling a lot with some things. Her family lives a long ways away and there is something going on. God is really working on her heart. I showed her later some verses that God brought me to in my time with Him. As I was showing her tears started streaming down her face. It was exactly what she needed! I felt like it blessed me when I read them but for her it was complete joy. She said I need to call my husband and tell him. It was a sweet time… she kept thanking me over and over.
The kids were super hyper tonight so we had them do exercises and run around to wear of some of the energy. They bless me so much with their laughter and smiles. My friend Jose Bulmaro came back today from visiting his house. It was nice to catch up with him. When he was talking with others and the kids were in bed I felt called to read some more. I got out my bible and was reading about fear of the Lord. Just before Jose and I talked about how he was scared to visit the Hospice Center… just to see everything. I need to realize more everyday that God is so powerful and mighty… he deserves my thoughts and actions. He is the One to fear not things here… He is in control.
I group came tonight from California and I get to help them work on the new hospital tomorrow. They seem really nice and I am excited to get to know them. I told them that I was just at the Hospice Center yesterday and it always touches my heart… I said those are the people we are making this hospital for. I can’t wait to see what God is going to do tomorrow… my prayer is that He will change me to be more like Him and less of me.
Friday, September 11, 2009
September 9, 2009-Wednesday- Day 21
I woke up today believing that I was going to be able to sing to the people at the Hospice Center but it didn’t happen. I took pictures of the kids for the website and I had some very good God time. I was praying about lots of things and God showed me scripture that eased what I was struggling through in my heart. God is so good and all the time.
I was laying in my bed reading a book when I decided to listen to my iPod and just rest. As I picked up my iPod I noticed that it had a layer of dirt on it. I had used it just the night before… and looking around everything in my room was covered in dirt. My guitar case majorly was, my clothes, blankets, pillows, clock, bags, shoes, and everything! It was crazy… I thought man I will really be taking Mexico home with me… this stuff will take awhile to get clean. Then I thought wow this covering of dirt is like what God’s love is for me. It covers me from head to toe… every inch. So every time I look around and see that layer of dirt I think of how much God loves me.
Later I was able to go with Roberto and pick the kids up from school… some of them had to come back right away because there was no classes. That happens ALL the time. The teacher just doesn’t come… maybe sick or something else comes up so they don’t get their education at all. But the staff said hey its Mexico things are different. Tonight I spent a lot of time with Israel, his wife, and Evelyn. It was good hearing the side of the adults at the orphanage and their struggles. They are a lot of fun.
I walked in to their home after playing with the kids and saw little Israel drawing some stuff. I told him that it looked really good and he smiled. I asked him for a hug and he said that he was to sick and didn’t want me to get sick. Then he fake coughed. Haha he is such an interesting character. Later he did give me a hug and talked to me about airplanes. I love the way he talks… so serious.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
September 3, 2009-Thursday- Day 15
Today I woke up around 8 and hung out with the kids all morning. Later I was able to go with Israel’s wife and a friend shopping. It was good just spending time with them and everything. We got some different things and then I was back at the orphanage. Sergio talked to me about different things that he wants me to help out with. He said I would love for you to be a speaker for Baja Visions.
I was telling him that it would be great for there ministries to have supporters that will be praying for them and be faithful in helping them with funs. I said that you have so many people that have come down and lots of churches that have seen what it is going on that I can’t believe that they are not having these ministries as something they support monthly. That is when I realized why I believe one reason God brought me to Tijuana. I think that I am suppose to help them set up different support areas and get the word out there that they are in need, to just be a voice for Jesus for these wonderful people. There are a lot of needs but I know that God will fulfill them in His timing.
September 4, 2009- Friday- Day 16
I was not feeling all that well today and it was super tough for me to get out of bed. I don’t know what it was but I was constantly tired. Sergio had me go with him to drop one of the workers off at home. He told me on the way back that his wife is really not doing vey good. She is very sick and has a brain tumor. They don’t have the money for treatment stuff so they are hoping that they can figure this all out.
I took a long nap and felt somewhat better when I woke up. Later I was invited to get tacos with little Israel and Evelyn (a lady who is helping at the orphanage). They were great and I love the way that little 3-year-old Israel talks. He is a very crazy child who is trying to cause trouble and make people laugh. He is honestly one of the cutest kids I have ever seen. He kept yelling at me what is your name in Spanish. I would tell him and then he would repeat it and forget it and we would do it all over again. Later we went to take his parents some tacos and we stopped to buy some pop for them. Evelyn went in to buy the pop and we waited in the car. He kept on trying to honk the horn and I wouldn’t let him. He got mad and when Evelyn got back she handed me the pop then he told her that I drank all of it. He is so ridiculous but I do love his spirit.
We drove to Israel’s house that he is fixing up. Him and his family will go there for a day off or just get away for a little bit. A friend is living there right now. It is looking great. It is a trailer and they are fixing it up with new tile and different stuff. We left there dropping little Israel off and then I was able to dance with the girls at the orphanage. They make up moves to different songs and I was following along. They are super cute and were excited that I was joining them.
I was feeling kind of different today and somewhat homesick… I keep thinking that I am not doing enough for these people. So I got out my devotional and read what it was about. It was exactly what I needed. It talked about that if I want to be a missionary or just servant for Christ I need to be completely His. I have been reading through God’s smuggler and it has helped me tremendously. God really put that book in my life at this time for a reason.
September 5, 2009- Saturday- day 17
I played volleyball with a couple of the kids today and hung out around the orphanage. There is this family of 5 boys that live here and it is the youngest birthday in a couple of days so their mom came to visit them and throw him a party. It is interesting to me that she will buy him a cake, a couple gifts, and some piñatas but isn’t there really for their lives. She was bad into drugs and different things… I’m not sure the whole story but the boys were excited to see their mom.
Her bringing piñatas was the highlight of the day for most of the kids. It was a good time I believe for them and they shared the cake with everyone. Israel told me that those 5 boys would always live here until they are old enough to move out. Their mom will never be able to have them back. She is just not stable enough.
September 6, 2009- Sunday- Day 18
I went to a small baptized church this morning with the kids. And when I say small I mean like there was probably 15 other people in the congregation besides the group I was with. I didn’t understand hardly any of the messages but a couple of words here and there. Since the church was so small it was more like a small group setting and the Pastor called out on people for answers or reading scripture. He called out on me and I was like I don’t understand what you are even saying. He laughed and asked me my name. He couldn’t say it but he did try. They sang hymns with no instruments because I think no one there new how to play the worn out piano in the corner. The one thing that I noticed is that there were ants all over the tile floor. Tons, I don’t think that I have ever seen that many ants inside a building before but hey it’s Mexico. When the two-hour service was over everyone came up and shook my hand. It was an interesting time… I think I am going to go to the other church though next Sunday.
Tonight I was able to go to a Christian concert with a couple of the older girls and Israel’s wife. The main guy had a very wonderful voice but again basically the whole time I didn’t understand what was going on. I didn’t know any of the songs or when he would talk I understood like maybe 5 to 10 words after awhile. I just tried to take it all in and realize that I was able to experience something that they loved. Man I would really love to know Spanish better but to understand what was all going on there I would have to live here for years!
September 7, 2009- Monday- Day 19
This morning the kids woke me up at 6:30… I wasn’t very happy because I really wanted to sleep. But its ok it happens. I had an amazing God time and I feel like Christ is pushing me a lot!
There is a couple that lives at the orphanage name Roberto and Edith. They are pretty amazing people and I have loved getting to know them throughout my time here. Today their son, Alan, came and so I was able to talk with him. He is 22 and isn’t saved which is really tough on his parents. I talked with him a lot cause he knew English really well. Him and I talked about Jesus and what he struggles with. It was good and I hope someday he will believe. He said that he doesn’t understand that if there is a God why there is so much suffering and he also said that he had been hurt a lot so he never wants to love again. It was an interesting time of explaining why I believe what I believe and just hearing his story.
Later I was able to go around with Israel in the new van that someone had given to them. Well it’s not new but it’s new to us! We drove to look at different programs for his computer and just get some other things. I love talking with him because you can clearly see Jesus in him whenever you are in his presence. I was sharing with him some songs that had blessed me the night before as I was listening to my iPod. I was listening to the song Filled with Your Glory and I was so blessed that I turned on my light and danced around my room in worship. Haha sounds stupid to the world and I probably looked crazy but I felt so free!
We got back to the orphanage and I talked to my friend David who is 16 years old. He loves Christian music and so I was sharing with him some of my collection. I love his smile and his spirit… he is super crazy but caring underneath it all. I told him that if he gets me some blank CDs that I would give him some of my music. He was super pumped and we sat together for a long time going through everything I had.
Later Alan wanted to talk to me again and his friend was with him. They wanted to practice there English so that they could talk to people from America when they came to there work. Also they helped me a little with Spanish. Today was a good day and I feel like i'm learning a lot.
September 8, 2009- Tuesday- Day 20
I can’t believe it has been 20 days that I have been here. As I was driving with Israel he asked me how it has been for me. I told him that God has truly been working on my heart and trying to make me completely His. Also that I see Jesus in all the faces of the people and kids I work with.
Today I took a long nap and tried to not think about my stomach pain. For some reason I have been really sick with it and it is hurting me a lot. I have been praying that God would heal me so I don’t have to worry about it. I didn’t do all that much today besides some laundry and playing with the kids. I am trying to get pictures and things stet up for the City of Angels website. They need new pictures and want my help. I also have been just talking to different people that work here and I love them so much. I really like getting to know their stories and everything.
Israel is afraid that I am getting bored so he said he would take me to the Hospice Center tomorrow! Which I am really excited about! I haven’t been bored or anything… in my time alone I have been thinking and reading a lot. It has been good for me. I hope that tomorrow will be a great day filled with the glory of God!
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Thursday, September 3, 2009
September 2, 2009-Wednesday- Day 14
The group was suppose to come but they canceled the whole trip and now the family doesn’t get a house for a while… I guess the next group is coming in December. It makes me sad to think that the family was looking forward to a home and its not going to happen. We are doing different things to the orphanage and making it better. Sergio is always improving everything and working really hard.
I left with Israel’s wife Marlena (sp?) and the two youngest boys to find them some shoes. We went to this street market and I held Pepino or Eduardo in my arms. I really love him… he is five years old and super silly. We got back and then I left with Israel and his 16-year-old son Alberto. We ran around getting some shoes and uniforms for school. He also bought me the most amazing ice cream I have ever had. It was a soft peach with sunflower seeds, raisins, strawberries, almonds, and caramel for topping. It was pretty grand. I love driving around with him because we listen to Christian music and he sings with all that he is. So the driving here is pretty ridiculous and I can’t believe that I haven’t died yet. Haha
We got back and I did some different things, hung out with some people, and then took a nap. I got sick last night and today… my hope is that I will be healed soon and that it doesn’t affect me as I work. I then just played with the kids and watched the men work on the new addition. I love joking with the people… I am learning more and more Spanish so it is becoming easier. J
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
September 1, 2009- Tuesday- Day 13
It is day 13 for me in Mexico and I have loved it a lot. I woke up early because a group from America was suppose to be here to build a house BUT we got the days mixed and they come tonight and we work tomorrow. Israel and I visited with the family again and made sure the supplies were going to be at the site then we headed over to Sergio’s. I met his wife who has been sick and just visited for a while.
We left there to go get some breakfast and it was great! I had a Spanish omelet and this water with melon in it. I very much enjoyed the whole thing. We made it back to the orphanage and Sergio came by to get some stuff ready because we are building on at the orphanage. I left with him for a while to get supplies for that then took a nap.
I just relaxed tonight and the younger kids had bible study so it was not very busy. The two littlest ones got into the powdered concrete and covered themselves in it so that was fun. I guess a hurricane is coming my way and we could get some of it. Israel and I are looking at it everyday but he said he thinks that we will get some wind and rain. I’m not to worried about it… God knows what’s going on.
I noticed recently that when I hug these kids its like I get a glimpse of what Heaven will be like… with there smiles, laughter, and everything I feel like this is how Jesus wants me to see Him. I see Him in the suffering of everything to but when I do get to hold these kids’ hands or hug them and kiss their cheeks I realize this is exactly why I am here. No matter how hot it is or when my stomach hurts or that I have no privacy really… its all worth it!
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
August 31, 2009- Monday- day 12
It was hot again today but cooled off nicely this evening! I played with the kids and just chilled for quite awhile. I am trying to find out more about the pasts of different people and it is interesting. The government came today and gave some school supplies to the kids. I thought that was pretty cool. After awhile I helped Israel and his wife get some things organized then Israel asked if I would go with him somewhere. He showed me the site where we will be building a new house tomorrow. The family seemed nice but the foundation was pretty bad. The view where they live is amazing… you can see a great deal of Tijuana. J
I love talking with Israel cause he is always so real with me. He tells me about his bad times and what he thinks about things. He told me today that I will make a great mom one day… he can see it by the way I treat the kids and love with all my heart. He also told me he loved my singing and he was glad I was here. It was his birthday and he promised one of the boys who is 15 that they would go out for dinner. They invited me it was a great buffet. Before we went back to get the orphanage Israel showed me his house that he is fixing up and we also gave strangers rides. It was pretty interesting that he will just pick up people but he says I just trust God and it is a good way to witness. I said in America it is not a good thing and he said in Tijuana not good either but some people just need help.
I got back from supper and hung out with a couple of the older boys and some adults. We watched pro wrestling and I was laughing so much. That stuff is ridiculous but they love it here. I am really excited for tomorrow and I can’t wait to meet the group!
Monday, August 31, 2009
August 30, 2009- Sunday- Day 12
We woke up early to head off for the early 8:30 service at the big church this morning. I love it there! It is huge and used to be a boxing ring. They have a full band and dancers throughout the worship service. Our friend Abe from California translated for us and the sermon was very good. It was about directions in life and who controls your actions, if you are or if you are letting God take over your life. I was truly blessed by the whole thing. We sang some songs that are usually in English. I got chills throughout the singing… there is such a passion and amazingness about church here. I truly love it!
Abe took Chelsea to the airport today and I headed back to the orphanage. It was super hot today again and so I took a cold shower right when I got back. After awhile I went and did some things then hung out with the kids. One boy thought both of us were leaving and the moment he saw I was back he ran to me and clung to me for a long time. A lot of the kids asked about Chelsea and were sad. I told them that she is planning on trying to come back for my last week. They were realizing today that I was able to stay for a long time. They got excited! A lot of them were extra huggy today it was sweet.
Lunch was really good and then I again was with the kids until I took a nap. I had only gotten 3 hours last night so my nap was needed but it was SOOOO hot! I was covered in sweat every time I woke up. It was gross. I noticed that I am never really clean here. I am always sweating and dirty. The moment I step out of the shower my feet get dirty. It doesn’t really bother me its just interesting. After my nap I played with the kids and just talked to different people. This whole language barrier is really tough sometimes but that is life.
Tonight I was talking to two of the older boys around my age. One of them told me that he likes talking to me because he is really getting English down. He is really learning by listening and just visiting with me. The other boy and I struggle a lot with communication. It is mostly hand movements and a couple words that we understand from each other. But we are getting there. I feel very blessed that I am here and I know that I will be fine by myself. I noticed today that without Chelsea here I am listening a lot more and just taking everything in.
So something I wanted to share is that the people here LOVE our eyes. They are always saying something about them. It is because most of the Mexican people have brown eyes so we are different. At the old folks home they tell us, the young kids do, older ones, and adults. It’s interesting how many compliments I have had about my eyes in the last two weeks. I mean Chelsea has gorgeous eyes but mine are just normal… but I guess not to them.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
August 27, 2009- Thursday- Day 9
Today was a hot day. It was kind of a normal except when we took the kids to school we took a different road. The road was really bumpy and rocky. When we drive the sliding door is open because it is weird. Anyways when we were on this road something happened and the sliding door slammed shut and a huge cloud of dirt covered the whole van… it came through the windows too. It was ridiculous and we were all coughing and covered in it. We took cold showers and relaxed till the kids got back. The kids always run in with their little uniforms on and sweating like crazy. There uniforms are like sweaters and stuff… it is so hot I don’t know how they do it.
Then I got on the computer to check everything and get caught up. I was able to give City of Angels 600 dollars for backpacks and supplies I was so excited! (they only need like 400 more) But the thing I loved most was just hanging out with Israel and his family. His 3-year-old son is hilarious and did a little dance for us. It was so cute… I just love him except he is so naughty sometimes.
It was a laid back day but hey it happens. We didn’t get to go to the old folks home because of some things that came up but God will work it all out in time.
August 28, 2009- Friday-Day 10
Chelsea and I woke up late today… well we slept in till 8 and then played with the kids until we took them to school. Two of the older kids rode with us to drop the little ones off. We took them to get cokes and our friend Jose told us about his life here and things like that. He talked about how popular drugs and alcohol are here among his friends. We told him it is the same with us. We have the same problems all around.
I tried to take a nap but it was another hot day so I was covered in sweat constantly. Then after awhile the kids came back from school and were super hyper. Tonight was an awesome night of hugs and kisses. The kids were so loving and touchy. Wanting us to be with them the whole time. It was super sweet and blessed me a lot. The kids sang songs before bed tonight. We knew one! I’m in the Lord’s army! It was fun to hear it in Spanish and everything. I went with Israel after to drop off someone and to go to the store. Israel and I talked about just who God was and how we shouldn’t judge. I am learning a lot about his life and how he came to Christ… it is so special. He kept saying the next time you come back after these 3 months you will have to bring friends and family. I want to show everyone how great Mexico is and where God is working!
I got back to the orphanage and talked to some more people. It’s tough on Chelsea to think about leaving in a few days but I know she will get through it. She loves this place so much but one of our new friends said ‘we will call you.’ He wants to call us when we are back in the states and come visit sometime. Haha he is sweet. I hope someday he can see America.
Over all today was a good day except I fell twice today… it was so stupid… I fell once on my way to the van and I slipped on some mud (I was holding a 5 year old in my arms too) then I fell tonight by the sinks in the bathroom because it was wet… and a girl got pop on my computer. I almost cried but God had it work and everything seems to be doing well. My hope is that nothing really got into places that will hurt it. I will pray more about it. I’m pumped for tomorrow hopefully we will buy the kids’ backpacks! I can’t wait to see their faces when they get a new one!
August 29, 2009- Saturday- Day 11
Today it was at a comfortable temperature of 106 degrees as we drove through Tijuana going around 90 mph on the highway with the hot wind blowing in our face and dirt coating every inch of us. It was ridiculous and I guess it was up to 120 degrees the day before! Gross! But hey its whatever. We woke up and then headed out with Israel to buy 35 backpacks and then some tile for the floor in his home. We got back to the orphanage and Sergio was waiting for us. He took us to the Old Folks Home, which is one of my favorite places. The people long so much for someone to love them. It’s really tough to go there and see all their faces.
We then headed to Sergio’s house to see how is wife was doing. She is very sick and needs to be resting a lot. She needs a lot of prayer please pray for her… her name is Rachel. After awhile Sergio took us to what he did in his spare time. He built another orphanage that has like 40 kids in it. It is really small and then need to have more buildings put up. It was so crazy that Sergio said like 20 kids sleep all in the same room on bunk bed and it was a small room.
Israel’s birthday is on Monday so different people brought him a cake tonight and Chelsea took him and his family out for dinner. We went to Carl Jr’s it was pretty good. I loved when were driving back cause his son little Israel was looking out of the sunroof and dancing. He is just too cute. There was a lot of drug business going on that we saw. When we were driving home there were cops everywhere; people being searched and just craziness. The scariest thing was after we said good night to everyone and we were journaling Chelsea and I heard a gun shot not to far from the orphanage. Sometimes I forget where I am and that this place needs so much help. I know that I am safe and in God’s hands but people are stupid sometimes.
Israel talked to me about teaching English to the teenagers and helping them with fund raising. I am excited! Chelsea was up pretty late packing, saying goodbye, and everything so we didn’t get to bed till like 3. But it happens. I wonder what it is going to be like to be alone with no Americans from home with me for the next 2 and half months… pretty interesting is my guess.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
August 26, 2009- Wednesday- Day 8
WOW what a day! It was so crazy and filled with things I never thought would happen. It started out with us really tired and hardly awake for breakfast then Sergio came to get us. He is so funny and told us story after story. We started out by getting our friend Martin that he had not seen in two years! It was pretty crazy… we have all grown up a lot and now he has long hair with dread locks. We headed over to the new hospital after picking up Martin. Last summer we were able to help build some buildings for the new hospital. There were either 3 or 4 buildings up but now there are 11! It was super amazing to see how far they have come in a year. There is a place to eat, a home for the people who run the place, and different areas for the patients.
After looking through the colorful new hospital with over 50 hospital beds donated to them we headed to the Hospice Center. Last summer they were mostly all in a garage but Sergio helped them find a place to rent and it is really nice. It broke my heart being there. I was kind of slapped in the face by God. There were men in diapers lying around and lots of people missing limbs. One man had just had a hip replacement and he wasn’t taking it well. He was so skinny and frail… I didn’t know what to do… he was kind of gasping for every breathe. Upstairs in the place there was a man who used to be a heroine addict who had blown out his veins so he couldn’t really move that much but they were doing therapy for him. Outside were more people and we talked to the lady who runs it with her husband. She used to be in jail and now goes to the jail to talk to the ladies about loving Jesus. Sergio asked me if I would be willing to go lead worship at the jail when she goes and talks. I was so excited and said of course.
Driving around in Tijuana is really interesting and scary but with Sergio talking it makes it all ok. He told me when Aaron (the guy on his staff who sets stuff up from people in America) said there was a girl from Nebraska calling he knew it was me. I asked him how and why did you remember me. He said you have such a passion and I knew you looked like a Baja Vision girl. (Baja Vision is his ministry) He really wants me to pray about coming on their staff full time. He wants young people with fresh ideas to come in and help. He said he loved that we are here and wants us to be here all the time.
We went by this place that is really poor. Over 300 families need new homes in this area and it is Sergio’s next mission to get them what they need. It is horrible and I can’t believe what people are going through. There houses are made out of garage doors or tables or anything… it is tough but we can help them we just need to.
We had to get back to the orphanage for lunch and to drive the kids to school. Then later I was able to have a long talk with Israel about who he is and everything. His youngest boy is a miracle baby. His wife and him have been married for 22 years and were told they couldn’t have kids. But a guy came and talked to them about different doctor ways to have kids but they didn’t have the money so they prayed about it. 15 days later his wife found out she was pregnant! Now they have an adorable 3-year-old named Israel. His older son Alberto is from a different lady and Israel didn’t know about him tell a little over a year ago. Alberto’s mom died of a drug overdose… and Israel used to be bad into all that stuff. He had a tough life.
Later we talked about our hearts and why people are afraid of coming to Tijuana. I said they hear the news and are scared plus people are so comfortable in there houses. It was tough to talk about because I would love to find people to come and help build houses for people down here. They need our help and it’s not tough at all. Anyone could come hug a child or hold an old persons hand or help paint a house… not tough its just giving up your time. We need to stop putting our God in a box and realize He is everywhere and will protect us.
A couple from Canada came down and bought some pizza for the kids. They seemed really nice and they are going to go with us tomorrow to some different places. I can’t wait to head over to the old folks home! It is going to be so much fun! Tonight we were also able to go with Israel to pick up his son from school. He goes to school from like 5 to 9 at night… its weird. His school is also in downtown Tijuana by the Prostitute areas and stuff. We actually saw some prostitutes tonight… I wanted to cry realizing their lives. We got to see Tijuana at night though… a view of all the lights and everything from a big hill. It was amazing. It was a busy and fun filled day. I wanted to cry quite a bit… things just really got me. I am seeing Jesus in the face of these orphans or in a man dying at a hospice center or in a prostitute longing for love. Jesus will show us and he is walking in Tijuana. I don’t deserve to be here with these people but God I guess thinks I do.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
August 25, 2009- Tuesday- Day 7
Today was a day filled with surprise the Lord blessed me a lot and can’t believe that I am able to help like I can. More support came in which means backpacks for the kids! I cried realizing that this can work! We helped with taking the kids to school again and just hung out with them. It was really not a busy day at all. But the thing I loved the most was that I was able to talk to some of the helpers at the orphanage about their lives before this. A lot of them grew up in orphanages and like helping these kids. It is really great to see how the kids love them.
It was really hot today and when Chelsea and I tried to take a nap we were miserable because our room was so hot. I went with a lady that helps out here named Lupetia to pick up her oldest child from school. We walked only a couple of blocks but there was so much trash its gross. You can’t step hardly anywhere without stepping on a rock or trash. I guess we have been having some issues with someone breaking in and stealing tools. This place should be a safe place for the kids. So some of the guys stay up and keep watch all night to make sure everything is ok. Please be praying just that this wouldn’t be a problem and that the guys would actually be able to sleep.
Even though today was kind of a slow day it was good to just hang with the kids and learn more about people. I am really praying about support for Sergio and the kids… they really need people to give. We will see what happens. But like Sergio always says our God is good!
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
August 23, 2009- Sunday- Day 5
This morning a group from California lead a church service in Spanish. We sang songs like how great is our God and mighty to save in Spanish it was a lot of fun. I really loved listening to the story of David and Goliath that they told… well at least what I could understand. Then that team left and the kids went off to their church. Chelsea and I stayed behind with the older kids. We sang some songs and just relaxed. Lots of new kids came today so we have been trying to learn all their names and take pictures of them.
We decided to kind of decorate our room up with verses and pictures to make it feel a little more like home. Chelsea and I tried to take a nap today but it was so hot out that our room was ridiculous. Really today was very laid back and I was able to speak to people from back at home. Tonight we watched a movie with a couple kids and tomorrow we are going to help them get shoes for school. They actually start school tomorrow and so I have no idea what Chelsea and I will do when they are gone. We will figure it out. One thing that came to our attention was that a lot of the kids don’t have backpacks. So we are going to try to find a way to buy at least 30 backpacks for them. Israel is going to take us to see how much they will cost and we will try to get people to sponsor it. Just an idea!
August 24, 2009-Monday- Day 6
It was the first day of school for most of the kids. They woke up a lot earlier and played all morning then headed out for school around 1pm. We were able to go with Israel and some kids to get shoes right before school started. It was an interesting experience but nothing could have prepared me for taking the kids to school. We took the first batch, which was 2nd to youngest group… we had 23 children and 3 adults in a 15-passenger van. It was crazy! The thing that blessed me was that some of the kids had to kiss and hug us goodbye before they headed off out of the van. J
Then we took the older kids to school and found out that some of them start the next week so we had to go pick them back up. We drove up a steep dirt narrow road with cars all around. It seemed to take forever. Roberto (one of the main helpers at the orphanage) was driving and hit another car which I guess happens all the time and no one really cares. We headed back to the orphanage and talked to Israel about getting backpacks for the kids. After awhile we headed out with him, his wife, and one son Alberto to get some cokes, then fish/shrimp tacos (which were absolutely amazing!) and then looked at supplies for school. My plan is to find a way to get them the supplies that they need. I will raise the money from churches at home. I believe it will only be around $1000, I didn’t think that was bad at all. For 30 kids to get backpacks and over 30 kids to get supplies.
So my God moment today was definitely driving with Israel. He had this CD in that had many Christian songs in Spanish that Chelsea and I knew in English. Israel sang with all his heart and we sang with all of ours. It was a great time of realizing that our God is a God that knows everyone from every domination, country, and language. He also drove us to a place where we could see a great view of Tijuana… it was amazing. I believe there are around 3 million people that live in Tijuana. It is crazy! Oh so we also saw a lot of McDonalds, Burger Kings, KFCs, Sam Clubs, and other America places all over as we drove. I think it is so crazy how Americanized places are. Israel told us today when we were eating tacos that he grew up in an orphanage and that it was not always good all the time so that he wants City of Angels to be wonderful for the kids and place that actually feels like home. I thanked him for letting us come and he said that we have no idea how much it means to the kids that we are here. He remembers when he was a kid people coming and they will always be in his heart. That really touched my heart to know that we are making a difference.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
August 22, 2009- Friday- Day 4
We had a pool party for the kids today! It was a grand time of just relaxing and having fun. I can’t believe that God let me come to Mexico to serve… it has blessed me more than I could ever have imagined. I have been talking to a lot of the kids and getting to know them. They are so funny and full of life. We talked with Sergio today again and he drove Chelsea and I to the pool. He is so silly and excited that we are here. He has lots of plans for me and was telling me about all of the ideas he has to help build his ministries up. We think the economy is bad in America… we have no idea. People are struggling everywhere and in Sergio case he needs supporters. People to commit to help him for every month for a year. He wants me to start up some different things for fundraising and maybe sponsoring a child. I am excited to see that I came at a time to help them. J Sergio also was telling other people around about Chelsea and I. He called us his daughters and said that we should call him Papa. We are now a part of the family. He is so proud of us and loves us so much.
So what I think is so cool is that the kids are wanting to learn English so they can talk to us. They are trying just as hard as I am to learn their language. I was singing and playing guitar for some of the kids tonight and after I but all of my stuff away one of the older boys told me I sing very beautifully then an older gentlemen named Chewy said Oh so beautiful its like an angel is singing, just beautiful. You should make a CD! Then I showed them some of my recordings and pictures of people from home. I love how they want to know you and who you truly are.
I am excited for the next 3 months. These children have won my heart and Sergio told me that I could help out with groups that build homes and stuff. He also asked me to lead worship for times that he preaches. I also wanted to say that even though the news says that Tijuana is so horrible and stuff like that… some may be true but really there is so much more to this place and I believe you should come and see it for yourself!
Saturday, August 22, 2009
August 21, 2009- Friday- Day 3
Today was quite an interesting day. I have gotten to know the kids even more and I love it. God is really showing me why I am here and what I should be doing. The kids are super silly and are warming up to us really well. Some won’t leave us alone at all. I am finding out about their pasts and just who they are. At the orphanage we have kids of all ages… ranging from two to nineteen or even older. It’s nice to talk to people of all ages. Chelsea was telling me that some of the kids struggle with some Americas coming. I believe it would bother me to… to see group after group come and go. Having to put a smile on your face and play with them all the time. It would get tough after awhile.
A group from Arizona came today to measure the kids’ feet to give them shoes. I thought it was really sweet that they are giving the children shoes and the kids also got measured for school uniforms.
Sergio showed up today and I was SO excited! He said praise God when I told him I was staying for 3 months. He is so special in my heart. I almost cried talking to him because he just brings back to me so many great memories of past years. Him and I are going to plan out when I will be able to go to the Hospice Center, old folks home, and other things. I am pumped to see how things turn out! I have to keep remembering I am here for a long time so if I can’t go to something today there is always tomorrow. J
God has been showing me some interesting things these past three days. To rely on Him completely is the one that is popping out the most. That even though I don’t have a phone, a schedule, Internet all the time, can’t speak much Spanish or other things I still have Jesus to fulfill my every need. These kids are showing me to see joy in the simple things. It’s sweet to see God work.
Friday, August 21, 2009
August 19, 2009-Wednesday- Day 1
Hola everyone. So it’s the first day for my friend Chelsea and I in Mexico. It’s been kind of interesting. We flew throughout the morning and got to San Diego where Aaron of the guys who works for Baja Visions picked us up. He drove us down to Tijuana where we ate some tacos then headed over to the Orphanage. I really do love the kids. There is this two-year old little girl named Sinclaire who has really blessed me. We have made some other new friends but a lot of them are away until this next week when school starts. I am super excited to see Sergio this weekend. He is the guy we have worked with for the past two years.
This trip is so different it will really be just going with the flow. Hang out with the kids and try to get a ride to other places if we can. I believe this trip will be so different. I am a little scared in a way cause I don’t speak that much Spanish and there are only two people at the orphanage who speak some English. This shall be an interesting and challenging three months but I know God has me here for a reason and will change my life.
The Internet is not very good at the orphanage so I have no idea when I will be able to talk to people from home. I decided to type up everything and then transfer it over when I can. I guess we will see what happens. It has kind of set in that I am back here but honestly it feels so different than the last two times cause I’m not with a group, there is no schedule really, and I will kind of be on my own after Chelsea leaves in two weeks. My prayer is that I stay busy, really try to make a difference, not freak out about the language barrier, not get home sick, and allow God to transform me.
August 20, 2009- Thursday- Day 2
Today was a great day filled with laughter and children. I have gotten to know a lot of the kids by name and they are starting to love us. They truly bless me. I have found out about some of their pasts and why they are here. Some have been at the orphanage almost if not all of their lives. There is a group of four brothers whose mother couldn’t take care of them because she didn’t have a home and she is a drug addict. I guess their stepfather used to beat them too. It made me sad to realize that when those boys came in to the orphanage the youngest that is now 5 was two weeks old. Chelsea made bracelets for the kids which they loved and we watched SpongeBob in Spanish. That was interesting.
I was talking to this guy named Robert who works and lives at the orphanage. He was reading his bible and I decided to show him a few of my favorite passages. He hardly speaks any English and I struggle with Spanish so it took us a little bit but one passage I showed him was Isaiah 6. This passage is about what he saw when he got to see a glimpse of the Lord. Robert read through and pointed out verse 8. Which is “Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, ‘whom shall I send? And who will go for us?’ And I said, here am I. Send me!” Robert said this is you. You were sent to Tijuana. You came for God. I realized that even though we have a room that has a sheet for a curtain that can be seen through, cement dirty floors, bugs everywhere, a door to our room that won’t shut and bathroom stalls that can’t close because the toilets are to close to the door that I am here for Jesus. I am here to serve. SO what if I am not as comfortable as I would be if I were back at home? This feels like home and I love these people.
My Spanish is already getting better and tomorrow a group from America comes plus we get to see Sergio! I also found out from Israel (the man who runs the orphanage and is our leader) that he will help us see the people we have met before and go to places like the Hospice Center. I am excited.