Friday, May 27, 2011

Estoy en Tijuana

Hey everyone,

I am back in Tijuana and loving on some beautiful children. God is good and working. I have been praying a lot for the kids and for God to show me needs that need to be met. We are searching for a desktop computer for the orphanage because our other brokedown. A friend of mine is going to help some but It would be amazing in the end to get the more than one... to bless them more in the long run!

The kids keep thinking that I am going to leave them... its not real to them that I am staying for another month. EVerytime I go out of the orphanage or if I am carrying a bag they freak out and ask if I am going home. I love them so much

Today we went to the movies and saw the movie Rio which is about some birds. The kids were so happy. Thank you for all your prayers and I hope to keep you all updated.. we don't have internet at the orphanage right now, I am just going to an internet store.

thanks again!

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Love them like Jesus

The past week or so I been listening to the Bible in audio form and I have enjoyed it tremendously. I wish I would have had that when I kept having terrifying nightmares in Mexico.I have been listening to the smaller books in the Old Testament and things have been popping out at me... like: "Then all the nations will call you blessed, for yours will be a delightful land."- Malachi 3:12 OR "Lord, I have heard of your fame, I stand in awe of Your deeds, Lord. Repeat them in our day, in our time make them known: in wrath remember mercy."- Habakkuk 3:2
Have I really ever stood completely in awe of our God? Have you? I just thought I would share them with you.

But, anyways, I am heading back to Tijuana this coming wednesday and for some reason I am a little nervous. I have been there tons of times but my nerves are kicking in. I think that satan is trying to bring me down BUT I believe that if satan is working against me that, that means God has something huge in store for this 5 week trip.

I wanted to ask you for your prayers for the kids and for me. I have realized more and more that prayers are what is getting me through. I love the kids at City of Angels with all of my heart-- through all odds I continue to have this passion for them to have a future, to be safe, and to realize how much Jesus loves them. I want them so badly to be servants of our great servant. And one day i hope they all are. I thought of the song "Love them like Jesus" by Casting crowns and here are the lyrics that got to me:

"Just love them like Jesus, carry them to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
Love them like Jesus"

Do we really love the people around us like Jesus? We can't just love the ones who are easy to love but we are called to love all. All the forgotten, drugged, crazy, scary, homeless, orphaned, rich and poor. A friend sent me a quote the other day that blessed me BEYOND belief and I hope that it touches your heart as well.

"Orphans are easier to ignore before you know their names.
They are easier to ignore before you see their faces.
It is easier to pretend they're not real before you hold them in your arms.
But once you do, everything changes." - David Platt
That quote brings tears to my eyes, the children at City of Angels Orphanage changed everything in my life. This little boy in the picture above is my beautiful, intelligent, Luis. He is 12 years old and my days are not complete without a hug from this gorgeous boy. He has captured my heart. I hope you are all blessed and I thank you for all your support so far. I will try to keep up on my adventures through the next 6 weeks or so.

Friday, May 6, 2011

Never forget the Faithfulness of Our God!

I am so amazed by our great Father. I am raising support and still have quite a ways to go but it still amazes me that anyone would give. I mean... who am I to serve? To be a missionary? WOW the Lord uses you when you least expect it and when you feel so unworthy.

Constantly on the field I feel unworthy of the calling the Lord has put in front of my face but I still listen for His voice. Last night I was praying for my kids in Tijuana and my heart started to hurt. I began to cry deeply as I thought about each child. I want to help them and let them see that they CAN have a future! I want them to know my Savior like I do and even deeper. I want them to feel His presence and be amazed by His works. I want them to know how much I adore them, love them, and would do anything for them to know Christ. They need to know how special, beauitful, smart and talented they are.
With tears in my eyes, I could just feel the pain of the kids. They are so little but have been through so much. Just the thought of abandonment alone is horrifying and also some have been abused, hungry, and so much more. Pray for a little boy at the orphanage named Jesus. We call him Chuma and he just turned 11. He is on my heart a lot and I know what he has been through and the more I am in Tijuana the more I see the pain. He has a lot of troubles but has a sweet heart. I know if he would give everything to the Lord that he would be a great servant of Christ.
I watched the movie Bordertown lately and it is about the girls who were raped and murdered in Juarez, Mexico. In the movie it reminded me a lot of Tijuana. All the prostitution and poverty as they would show the city. How the police really don't care about the people and how corrupt the government is. I kept thinking of the people I cherish so much and made me believe even more that we can not be afraid. We need to stand up and truly help the people of Mexico. I hear all the time that I am crazy to serve there because it is so "horrible" but I always say... but who else will go? I have been called and I will not go against what the Lord is telling me. And the safest place for me to be is in the center of God's will!

Sergio (the missionary I work with) told me to read Isaiah 62: 1-4a, 6-7, 12 and to switch the name Jerusalem for Tijuana:
"For Zion’s sake I will not keep silent,
for Tijuana’s sake I will not remain quiet,
till her vindication shines out like the dawn,
her salvation like a blazing torch.
The nations will see your vindication,
and all kings your glory;
you will be called by a new name
that the mouth of the LORD will bestow.
You will be a crown of splendor in the LORD’s hand,
a royal diadem in the hand of your God.
No longer will they call you Deserted,
or name your land Desolate.....

I have posted watchmen on your walls, Tijuana;
they will never be silent day or night.
You who call on the LORD,
give yourselves no rest,
and give him no rest till he establishes Tijuana
and makes her the praise of the earth...

They will be called the Holy People,
the Redeemed of the LORD;
and you will be called Sought After,
the City No Longer Deserted."

The Lord is working in Tijuana and I believe He is going to change things in His time :) I leave for Tijuana on May 25th for 5 weeks then had off to Africa in September.

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